- you won't hurt me -




- NO, LITTLE BIRD, I WON'T HURT YOU -

RIVER SONG
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SHERLOCK'S SCARF
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RIVER & ELEVEN
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House Clegane
{ GAME OF THRONES }
Feb 20th - Mar 20th
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VEGETARIAN
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Day 11 : Your dream scene/storyline I want a hug. I want more kisses. I want a love declaration from the Doctor. I want the Singing Towers, even if it’s gonna break my heart. I want EVERYTHING. And you know what? STEVEN IS GOING TO GIVE US EVERYTHING. I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH. HE’S MY GOD. SO. The thing I want and that we won’t have because it’s a family show (sometimes I wish it wasn’t…) is some SEXY TIME IN STORMCAGE. Yeah. I’m not even mad.  Alex and Matt showed us that they can be extremely hot together. Their kiss with ABBA on the background is the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen. ABBA. It’s not supposed to be sexy. And it is. That’s how sexy they are. THEY MAKE I DO I DO I DO I DO I DO SEXY. I can’t even imagine what it would be if we had more than a kiss. *insert strange noises coming from my mouth here*  Their nights. That’s between him and her, I know. BUT I’D LOVE A PEAK.

Day 11 : Your dream scene/storyline

I want a hug. I want more kisses. I want a love declaration from the Doctor. I want the Singing Towers, even if it’s gonna break my heart. I want EVERYTHING. And you know what? STEVEN IS GOING TO GIVE US EVERYTHING. I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH. HE’S MY GOD.

SO. The thing I want and that we won’t have because it’s a family show (sometimes I wish it wasn’t…) is some SEXY TIME IN STORMCAGE. Yeah. I’m not even mad. 

Alex and Matt showed us that they can be extremely hot together. Their kiss with ABBA on the background is the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen. ABBA. It’s not supposed to be sexy. And it is. That’s how sexy they are. THEY MAKE I DO I DO I DO I DO I DO SEXY. I can’t even imagine what it would be if we had more than a kiss. *insert strange noises coming from my mouth here* 

Their nights. That’s between him and her, I know. BUT I’D LOVE A PEAK.



Day 10 : A song for River and the Doctor

 - Are you the one? - Within Temptation -


Are you the one? 
The traveller in time who has come 
To heal my wounds to lead me to the sun 
To walk this path with me until the end of time 

Are you the one? 
Who’s had enough of pain 
And doesn’t wish to feel the shame, anymore 
Are you the one? 



Day 09 : Favorite kiss - “Regenerating kiss” (Let’s kill hitler) -  Tough choice. But since I already talked about the wedding and mentionned the first kiss, and haven’t talk about Let’s Kill Hitler yet, let’s go for this one. The healing kiss. When River sacrifices all her regenerations to save the man she just killed. Because that’s how awesome she is.  Talking about it… Am I the only one who noticed they never had a real normal kiss? The first kiss was akward because the Doctor was quite surprised. The second kiss, well, it killed him. The third kiss healed him. And the forth kiss was with a robot. Can’t they have a kiss which isn’t poisonned or doesn’t restart time? Well no, they can’t. Because that’s how awesome they are.  Back to this kiss. The music. The light. “Hello Sweetie”. River’s smile. The Doctor’s look. The kiss. The halo around them. EVERYTHING. Because that’s how awesome my OTP’s kisses are. Yeah. 

Day 09 : Favorite kiss

- “Regenerating kiss” (Let’s kill hitler) - 

Tough choice. But since I already talked about the wedding and mentionned the first kiss, and haven’t talk about Let’s Kill Hitler yet, let’s go for this one. The healing kiss. When River sacrifices all her regenerations to save the man she just killed. Because that’s how awesome she is. 

Talking about it… Am I the only one who noticed they never had a real normal kiss? The first kiss was akward because the Doctor was quite surprised. The second kiss, well, it killed him. The third kiss healed him. And the forth kiss was with a robot. Can’t they have a kiss which isn’t poisonned or doesn’t restart time? Well no, they can’t. Because that’s how awesome they are. 

Back to this kiss. The music. The light. “Hello Sweetie”. River’s smile. The Doctor’s look. The kiss. The halo around them. EVERYTHING. Because that’s how awesome my OTP’s kisses are. Yeah. 



Day 08 : Favorite River quote  “Trouble is, it’s all back to front. We’re travelling in opposite directions. Everytime we meet, I know him more, he knows me less. I live for the days when I see him. But I know that everytime I do, he’s one step further away. The day’s coming when I’ll look into that man’s eyes - my Doctor - and he won’t have the faintest idea of who I am. And I think it’s going to kill me.” - The impossible astronaut - How to summarize in a few sentences how TRAGIC their story is. It’s a real and proper tragedy. They just can’t escape their fate. They didn’t met in the right order at the start, then they are doomed to meet randomly until the end. One day will be the last day. The last day River will meet the Doctor. WE know that, and it’s already sad. But the worst part of it is that River herself knows. She knows to what end she’s coming. And still, she enjoys her moments with the Doctor. She accepted this fatality and she wants to live all her left moments of happiness with the Doctor completely, and until the end. This shows how much River is broken and how much she’s brave at the same time. 

Day 08 : Favorite River quote 

“Trouble is, it’s all back to front. We’re travelling in opposite directions. Everytime we meet, I know him more, he knows me less. I live for the days when I see him. But I know that everytime I do, he’s one step further away. The day’s coming when I’ll look into that man’s eyes - my Doctor - and he won’t have the faintest idea of who I am. And I think it’s going to kill me.”

- The impossible astronaut -

How to summarize in a few sentences how TRAGIC their story is. It’s a real and proper tragedy. They just can’t escape their fate. They didn’t met in the right order at the start, then they are doomed to meet randomly until the end. One day will be the last day. The last day River will meet the Doctor. WE know that, and it’s already sad. But the worst part of it is that River herself knows. She knows to what end she’s coming. And still, she enjoys her moments with the Doctor. She accepted this fatality and she wants to live all her left moments of happiness with the Doctor completely, and until the end.

This shows how much River is broken and how much she’s brave at the same time. 



Day 07 : favorite Doctor quote “And Doctor Song? In prison all her days?”  “Her days, yes. Her nights… well, that’s between her and me, eh?  - The wedding of River Song -  JUST KILL ME ALREADY. This quote. I CAN’T.  It’s the first time the Doctor implies that he’s in a relationship with River. Just like that, like a big boy. River is not here, he’s not flirting, nobody asked. It just wasn’t necessary to say that. BUT he says it anyway. Like he’s… proud. Remember in TIA when he thought that Canton was asking him what was going on between River and him, and he answered “nothing, she’s just a friend”. He wasn’t ready to be in a relationship, and even less ready to say it. Now he is. He’s married AND he considers himself as married. That’s what matters in the end.  PLUS, he’s implying that River and him have some sexy time in Stormcage…HOW COULD IT NOT BE MY FAVOURITE QUOTE?! Naughty Doctor is the best.

Day 07 : favorite Doctor quote

“And Doctor Song? In prison all her days?” 

“Her days, yes. Her nights… well, that’s between her and me, eh?

 - The wedding of River Song - 

JUST KILL ME ALREADY. This quote. I CAN’T. 

It’s the first time the Doctor implies that he’s in a relationship with River. Just like that, like a big boy. River is not here, he’s not flirting, nobody asked. It just wasn’t necessary to say that. BUT he says it anyway. Like he’s… proud. Remember in TIA when he thought that Canton was asking him what was going on between River and him, and he answered “nothing, she’s just a friend”. He wasn’t ready to be in a relationship, and even less ready to say it.

Now he is. He’s married AND he considers himself as married. That’s what matters in the end. 

PLUS, he’s implying that River and him have some sexy time in Stormcage…HOW COULD IT NOT BE MY FAVOURITE QUOTE?! Naughty Doctor is the best.



Day 06 : Favorite overall scene  - THE WEDDING - First reason : intensive fangirling. At the moment I understood what was going to happen : “Amy, uncuff me now”, I just went all *squeeeeeeee* until the end of the episode. And the days after. And today. And tomorrow. And for the rest of my life. But not only. For me this is the moment everything changes between the Doctor and River. In good. It’s been 200 years that the Doctor knows River at this point of his life. I’d like to insist on the 200 years. Even for a Time Lord, it’s a huge part of his life. He probably didn’t see her for years sometimes but still, she was always a satellite in his life. We don’t know how many times he’s met her all this time but they had at least Jim the Fish (I just WANT Jim the Fish. Steven, do you hear me? Find a way to make us see Jim the Fish!), Easter Island, probably some others but he still doesn’t know why she’s in prison. Well, he knows but he doesn’t know the real reasons. Anyway. 200 years later, their relationship has probably changed, we can imagine that he’s closer to River each time, and don’t forget the wonderful “2” on her enveloppe. But our dear and so stupid Doctor still doesn’t trust her enough to tell her his secret. On the other side, it’s only the second time that River/Melody meets the Doctor. We can imagine that a few years passed since Let’s kill Hitler, between 5 and 10 years probably, the time for her to become a doctor. She spent all these years loving the Doctor. Her own kind of love. I know it seems impossible to love someone you met only once but the thing is that she knows him. She studied him. She knows all the good and the bad things he has done. I think she truly loves him, and when she says that she’ll suffer more than every living thing in the universe, she mean it. Of course she’s wrong. But she’s in love. I already made a post about this anyway.  So, we have two characters at two completely different points of their relationship. But at the same moment. (… they’re so weird) And the wedding is the moment when they finally get synchronized.  I made a post about the Doctor’s choice. “River, River, why do you have to be this?” The one he can’t control, the one he can’t use as a pawn in his plan, the one who is his equal. And finally, 200 years later, he understands that. That’s the moment he understands who River is, the River he already knows, and all the things she’s done for him. Maybe. That’s what he decides to believe anyway. He chooses to believe that she always knew.  “You are always and completely forgiven.” As much as I love this quote, because it’s important in the Doctor’s acceptance of his feelings of River, she hasn’t done anything who needs to be forgiven, the suit controls her. He tells her that to make her feel less guilty, but the truth is that he doesn’t have to forgive her anything. Even less once she’s part of the plan. They’re equal, they have the same knowledge, they are both taking the decision to make the world believe that Melody Pond really killed the Doctor. For the Doctor, the wedding is the moment he accepts that he is not superior to River, he’s doesn’t have any power on her, he can’t take a decision for her, he can’t make her do what she doesn’t want to do. He can’t use her. He can ASK for her help.  Let’s talk about River now. About Melody more precisely. She’s ready to destroy the universe to not have to kill the Doctor. The Doctor is cross at her because it’s, well, it’s not good. But there is an important moment. The moment the Doctor completely change his attitude. “I can’t let you die!” He’s like : “come on, I’m the boss here, do as I say!” “I can’t let you die… without knowing you are loved.” The words that change everything. Look at the Doctor’s face. It’s everything he needed to hear, that he didn’t know he needed to hear before he heard it. I think that’s not Melody talking anymore. It’s River. The protective River. The one who’s always here to save the Doctor. To save his life and to save his mind. The mature River who knows when and what he must learn, remember, know. The words are coming from the mouth of River, the Doctor feels it. And that’s when he’s finally listenning.  It’s the moment Melody is turning into River. She’s still the young psychopath in love : “I’ll suffer if I have to kill you.” “More than any living thing in the universe?” “…Yes”. (I personally think that this is the most beautiful love declaration ever but well, she’s a bit irrationnal) but she’s growing up. And with a little help of the Doctor, when he shows her that he trusts her, when he shares his secret with her, when he asks for her help, she becomes River Song for good.  “Then you may kiss the bride”  Excuse me while I scream that she’s TAKING THE FUCKING DECISION TO GO IN PRISON FOR A MURDER SHE WON’T COMMIT. “Selfish child of the TARDIS”? Gone. She’s the amazing River Song who does what she will always do from this point : help and protect the Doctor. Excuse me again while I azertghnbendrf.  (And the kiss. Did I already said how much I love worship this kiss? The fact that it’s the teselecta is a bit frustrating but I have my headcanon and I stick to it.)

Day 06 : Favorite overall scene 

- THE WEDDING -

First reason : intensive fangirling. At the moment I understood what was going to happen : “Amy, uncuff me now”, I just went all *squeeeeeeee* until the end of the episode. And the days after. And today. And tomorrow. And for the rest of my life.

But not only. For me this is the moment everything changes between the Doctor and River. In good.

It’s been 200 years that the Doctor knows River at this point of his life. I’d like to insist on the 200 years. Even for a Time Lord, it’s a huge part of his life. He probably didn’t see her for years sometimes but still, she was always a satellite in his life. We don’t know how many times he’s met her all this time but they had at least Jim the Fish (I just WANT Jim the Fish. Steven, do you hear me? Find a way to make us see Jim the Fish!), Easter Island, probably some others but he still doesn’t know why she’s in prison. Well, he knows but he doesn’t know the real reasons. Anyway. 200 years later, their relationship has probably changed, we can imagine that he’s closer to River each time, and don’t forget the wonderful “2” on her enveloppe. But our dear and so stupid Doctor still doesn’t trust her enough to tell her his secret.

On the other side, it’s only the second time that River/Melody meets the Doctor. We can imagine that a few years passed since Let’s kill Hitler, between 5 and 10 years probably, the time for her to become a doctor. She spent all these years loving the Doctor. Her own kind of love. I know it seems impossible to love someone you met only once but the thing is that she knows him. She studied him. She knows all the good and the bad things he has done. I think she truly loves him, and when she says that she’ll suffer more than every living thing in the universe, she mean it. Of course she’s wrong. But she’s in love. I already made a post about this anyway. 

So, we have two characters at two completely different points of their relationship. But at the same moment. (… they’re so weird) And the wedding is the moment when they finally get synchronized. 

I made a post about the Doctor’s choice. “River, River, why do you have to be this?” The one he can’t control, the one he can’t use as a pawn in his plan, the one who is his equal. And finally, 200 years later, he understands that. That’s the moment he understands who River is, the River he already knows, and all the things she’s done for him. Maybe. That’s what he decides to believe anyway. He chooses to believe that she always knew. 

“You are always and completely forgiven.” As much as I love this quote, because it’s important in the Doctor’s acceptance of his feelings of River, she hasn’t done anything who needs to be forgiven, the suit controls her. He tells her that to make her feel less guilty, but the truth is that he doesn’t have to forgive her anything. Even less once she’s part of the plan. They’re equal, they have the same knowledge, they are both taking the decision to make the world believe that Melody Pond really killed the Doctor.

For the Doctor, the wedding is the moment he accepts that he is not superior to River, he’s doesn’t have any power on her, he can’t take a decision for her, he can’t make her do what she doesn’t want to do. He can’t use her. He can ASK for her help. 

Let’s talk about River now. About Melody more precisely. She’s ready to destroy the universe to not have to kill the Doctor. The Doctor is cross at her because it’s, well, it’s not good. But there is an important moment. The moment the Doctor completely change his attitude.

“I can’t let you die!”

He’s like : “come on, I’m the boss here, do as I say!”

“I can’t let you die… without knowing you are loved.”

The words that change everything. Look at the Doctor’s face. It’s everything he needed to hear, that he didn’t know he needed to hear before he heard it. I think that’s not Melody talking anymore. It’s River. The protective River. The one who’s always here to save the Doctor. To save his life and to save his mind. The mature River who knows when and what he must learn, remember, know. The words are coming from the mouth of River, the Doctor feels it. And that’s when he’s finally listenning. 

It’s the moment Melody is turning into River. She’s still the young psychopath in love : “I’ll suffer if I have to kill you.” “More than any living thing in the universe?” “…Yes”. (I personally think that this is the most beautiful love declaration ever but well, she’s a bit irrationnal) but she’s growing up. And with a little help of the Doctor, when he shows her that he trusts her, when he shares his secret with her, when he asks for her help, she becomes River Song for good. 

“Then you may kiss the bride” 

Excuse me while I scream that she’s TAKING THE FUCKING DECISION TO GO IN PRISON FOR A MURDER SHE WON’T COMMIT.

“Selfish child of the TARDIS”? Gone. She’s the amazing River Song who does what she will always do from this point : help and protect the Doctor. Excuse me again while I azertghnbendrf. 

(And the kiss. Did I already said how much I love worship this kiss? The fact that it’s the teselecta is a bit frustrating but I have my headcanon and I stick to it.)



Day 05 : A scene that made you cry Well. River’s death. “You and me. Time and space. You watch us run.” The last time I saw this scene I told myself : NEVER AGAIN. And honestly, I think I will never watch it again. Silence in the Library and Forest of the Dead are a succession of heartbreaking scenes. First, she must face the fact that the Doctor doesn’t know her. The man she loves, the man she married, the man she spent her life in prison for, the man she sacrified all her regenerations to save DOESN’T know who she is. The look on her face when she realize it is the moment I go all teary eyed. But the worst part for me is her death. The ultimate sacrifice. She gave to this man everything she could already. And now she’s giving him her life. It’s the last time she sees him, the last time she looks into his eyes, and she can’t even see love in them. For him, she’s the professor River Song, archeologist. Not a human plus time-lord, not the child of the TARDIS, not his companions daughter, not his wife. An other lost soul. She’s so alone. Her Doctor is not here.  The Doctor feels so powerless. He doesn’t know who this woman is but she’s making the biggest sacrifice to save him - and the 4022 people in the Library. And he doesn’t understand. “There nothing you can do.” Someone who is going to be so important to him in his future - he knows she will - is about to die. She could be the most important person of his life one day. And he can’t do anything. He can only watch her die, not even knowing how much it’s gonna hurt the future him.  They’re like two strangers. For her, it’s over. For him, it hasn’t begun. They’re looking at each other but none of them see who the other really is. And then she dies, saying one last time the first word he told her : “Spoilers…” I don’t know how I feel about CAL. I tell myself : It’s a dream. She’s basically living in a dream. And that’s almost ok for me. It’s not a real life in a computer. She’s not really stuck in a computer, which is so not her. But still… even if it’s a dream, I wish she was completely dead instead of a shadow of herself saved as a data. It actually makes her death even more tragic. Because when the Doctor saves her, he doesn’t know her. He doesn’t know who she is. And now that he knows, he can’t change the fact that he saved her in CAL. It’s always happening. She’s in CAL, always was and always will be. Gosh, sometimes I hate Moffat and his bittersweet endings.

Day 05 : A scene that made you cry

Well. River’s death.

“You and me. Time and space. You watch us run.”

The last time I saw this scene I told myself : NEVER AGAIN. And honestly, I think I will never watch it again.

Silence in the Library and Forest of the Dead are a succession of heartbreaking scenes. First, she must face the fact that the Doctor doesn’t know her. The man she loves, the man she married, the man she spent her life in prison for, the man she sacrified all her regenerations to save DOESN’T know who she is. The look on her face when she realize it is the moment I go all teary eyed.

But the worst part for me is her death. The ultimate sacrifice. She gave to this man everything she could already. And now she’s giving him her life. It’s the last time she sees him, the last time she looks into his eyes, and she can’t even see love in them. For him, she’s the professor River Song, archeologist. Not a human plus time-lord, not the child of the TARDIS, not his companions daughter, not his wife. An other lost soul. She’s so alone. Her Doctor is not here. 

The Doctor feels so powerless. He doesn’t know who this woman is but she’s making the biggest sacrifice to save him - and the 4022 people in the Library. And he doesn’t understand. “There nothing you can do.” Someone who is going to be so important to him in his future - he knows she will - is about to die. She could be the most important person of his life one day. And he can’t do anything. He can only watch her die, not even knowing how much it’s gonna hurt the future him. 

They’re like two strangers. For her, it’s over. For him, it hasn’t begun. They’re looking at each other but none of them see who the other really is. And then she dies, saying one last time the first word he told her : “Spoilers…”

I don’t know how I feel about CAL. I tell myself : It’s a dream. She’s basically living in a dream. And that’s almost ok for me. It’s not a real life in a computer. She’s not really stuck in a computer, which is so not her. But still… even if it’s a dream, I wish she was completely dead instead of a shadow of herself saved as a data. It actually makes her death even more tragic. Because when the Doctor saves her, he doesn’t know her. He doesn’t know who she is. And now that he knows, he can’t change the fact that he saved her in CAL. It’s always happening. She’s in CAL, always was and always will be. Gosh, sometimes I hate Moffat and his bittersweet endings.